Oh man.

One time I was in my room trying to sleep. It was about midnight or so and I was really tired. So I was just laying there and I heard this extremely high pitch chirp. At first I thought that it must have been something outside my window. I closed the window, thinking that the noise would stop. No, not even muffled a little bit. So I figure, maybe I'm crazy, maybe the noise is only in my head. Thirty minutes later I am freaking out. I thought that I was going insane. Then I think that maybe it is a rattlesnake? Because I have seen them around our house before. I get out of my bed, careful as to avoid the possible snake. I turn on the light and look around. No sign of the little devil. I notice that my sister is still awake so I walk, very quickly, to her room. After informing her of the situation I mentally prepare myself for the fight again. The battle of man vs. nature. So we walk into my room and I start the hunt. Not here, not there. I look behind my trash bag, right as I'm about to pick it up Alora says no. There on the bag was a grasshopper. . .

So that's pretty much the story. I took him outside and ended up staying up till 2 or so. The adrenaline. And I don't think that my brain was working too well because it was late and I think that sound could constitute as some kind of torture. . .

Don't buy

This was basically one of the worst dress/shirt/blouces ever.

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Turkey day.

So today is the day of the Turkey. Also know as, Thanksgiving.
Anyhow Thanksgiving is normally kinda crazy at our house. We have family/friends/people come over and celebrate with us. This year we just chilled and cleaned the house because we could. And dinner was amazing. And the pie was amazing. And we just talked and enjoyed each others' company. It was nice because lately we have all been so darn busy that we never really see each other. So today we chilled and talked and had a great day.
Even though I was sick Tuesday and most of Wednesday I have had quite the week. So much has happened. I have really thought about things that I would have never really thought about before. Questioned why I do what I do.
Life is going good. Very good indeed.

Thoughts

There is seriously so much going on in my head right now. I just don't know what to do. It's like there are a bunch of voices all yelling at once.

"WHAT ARE YOU-"
"DON'T THINK AB-"
"REMEMBER TO BR-"
"JUST D-"

And then there are the swimming thoughts and emotions.
The Air Force
Last night
Friday
Years ago
Confusion
Anger
Apathy
Willpower
Passion
Determination
Happiness
Driving
Phones
Talking
Work
So many other things. . .

My mind is spinning, round and around. Where will it stop, nobody knows. I only hope it will keep off things I don't want to think about.

Like the past
Or the future
The Good times
And the bad
Like the here
Or the there
The ups
And downs
Like the true
Or the false
The heat
And the frost


Thoughts swimming through my head. Never-ending.

Sarcasm is amazing!

One time this conversation happened at my house.
Blah, blah, blah I'm being really sarcastic and kinda mean, all in good fun. Then;
"Thanks, that really makes my heart warm."
"That's my job, to make your heart warm, like Jesus."

And I just thought, "Lord, spare me." And I laughed a lot. And so did my brother. It was awesome. I don't know if that was funny to anyone else, but I just had to get that out.

Faith like a child.

What is it to have faith like a child. I really don't think it means believe that everything in the Bible happened exactly like it literally said. Because if you do then Jesus' life would have been ridiculous, being here and there. Things all switched around. There is more to the Bible than just "This is what the Bible says." God calls us to use our heads, just to believe in Him, and have faith He will provide. Little kids don't worry, about anything. It's true.

You have to think of God like a kid used to think about their parents. They are amazing, they will do anything and everything. They are basically superheros to their kids. That's what God means. Trusting Him when it hurts. Not just when things are going good. That is having a child's faith, in my mind. Believe that nothing can change the Bible, even "proven" things. Maybe the Bible says 7 days, maybe billions of years. It does not matter.

In other news I hate Christianity. Not the religion, just some/most of the people, they can really suck sometimes.

Blerg?

I couldn't think of a good title. So I just thought I'd put that :)

So the other day at church a pastor said to make two lists, one of things that need prayer in your life and one of things to be thankful for. Here's my list of things I'm thankful for:

My family
My friends
My jobs
My truck
Being able to write on a blog
The knowledge of who I am
The ability to learn quickly
The highs and lows of life
People that keep me accountable (need more of these, hahaha)
My temperament, I care to know people, understand then
The ability to change my mind quickly
That I'm fine with being single :)
My parents not going crazy and kicking me out, almost happened
Music, all of it

And there's so much more, but I'll stick to that for now :)

Dude.

Ahh!! I have sooo much energy right now! It is crazy. And I have no idea where it came from, all of a sudden it just hit me. Maybe I'll forget studying for that test tonight and hit the gym. I think I'll go crazy if I don't.
Maybe this is what it feels like to be on drugs. . .

L. G. Fuad

If you have ever been addicted to anything, from candy to cocaine. This song should resonate with you. It's a great song, catchy beat and lyrics that make you think, even if they don't relate to your life like they do to mine.

Oh, yeah there are swear words.

Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.. yeah
Let me in, let me in to the club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.

I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds..
And all the things that don't get old..
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself through other peoples' descriptions of life..
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless...

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.

Sister soldier
You’ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you,
I would, but I'm hard up for cash
And my memory lacks initiative.

God damn the liquor store's closed,
we were so close to scoring
it hurts, it destroys 'til it kills..
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.
(In this department)

Am I the only one that just wants to put up song lyrics all day? Because I feel like they describe my life better than I could.

Deal with it. -Not a poem

Just deal with it. That's what I need to do.
I need to stop failing. I need to start winning this fight for my soul.
There are so many things I want to go do. Things I know are wrong.
Yet I want to do it still. Most of the time I care about what people think of me.
I don't want to be that hypocrite Christian. So I be very careful.
And I want that to be done. I'm sick of the masks that I put up.
Sick of hiding the wrongs I do. Sick of hiding the rights I do.
I want this to change. But how do I make it change?
If only I felt like this all the time.
Instead it is rare. Oh so rare.
Most of the time I don't care.
And I don't know why that is.
Oh life, you are so crazy.

Never learning...

Once upon a time, a foolish boy named Adam went to the High School Musical 3 opening night. This was not the best idea because he had work in the morning. Twice upon a time a silly college student named Adam went to the midnight showing of 007. This left him feeling exited because it was an awesome movie. Yet he had to work the next day, which was a very hard thing to do. Why hasn't this silly boy learned that staying up till 5 am is not good before having to be up at 7 am.
If he goes to the midnight showing of Twilight (Not likely) he will prove himself a fool. You should see his fault a lesson. Be sure to get sleep before work. Or take work off after midnight showings.

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

I love this show. And I love this song. It's so stupid, yet so amazing. . .

Amazing.

It is awesome to find people's blogs. Because I enjoy blogging and so do other people that I actually know. Or at least I know of them. Anyhow it is really trippy.
In other news November has been a great month so far. I saw Wicked, been hanging out a lot, got new cloths, school is okay. Yeah, good month. Well I guess we are not halfway through yet, but it is looking like over these next few months things are going to start looking up.

Something else that excites me, being single. No, I have not had a date for the last two years. But I have always wanted one. But I don't right now. Lately I've been trying to figure out how to be content by myself. Maybe it's just my mood, but I think I'm okay.
Besides, having a girlfriend is too much time, money, and emotional cost. At least that's how I'm justifying not having one.

America.

Check this out.
Basically the Germans own America. Kinda. . .

Girls, girls, girls.

There is this song by Lady Gaga that I love. It's called "Boys, boys, boys" and I enjoy it a lot. Anyhow, if the song were about girls it would be interesting.
So anyhow, girls, girls, girls. Girls are not very confusing to me, yet some of them are very confusing. Things girls do that send mixed signals.

Ask a lot of personal questions
Answer questions more indepth than expected
Trying to keep converstions going
The "girl" thing, acting helpless wanting you to help
Asking to hang out a lot
Going to Disneyland, just the two of you

There are so many more, but right now it is late and I'm getting tired. Work in seven hours, oy.

Theory.

So I am reading this book, The Science of God. It's a great book that is extremely thought-provoking. Anyhow, this website talks a bit about evolution and how it is "wrong" These people believe that if it were proven that the theory of evolution turned out to be true, the Bible would loose it's validity. Doesn't that make you sad, it sure makes me sad. That people are out there that don't even know how much the Bible and science work together, Genesis describes the creation process amazingly. Please, please check out The Science of God before you make any definite conclusions. People argue that evolution is too small for God, yet the fact that He could use the chaos of the big bang to create the universe is ironically beautiful. I'm not saying that the universe is 15+ billion years old, but maybe.
Basically don't be ignorant, look up facts and statistics before you argue one way or the other.

Change!!

Yep, time for change in my blog. I'm kinda done with this one. Time to change it up!

Wicked.

So I was able to see Wicked the musical last night due to a friend's father being very generous. Thanks Mr. B!!
So anyhow it was amazing! I really enjoyed it! The worst-ish part was the drive home. I drove there, which was fine because I was fully stoked. But the drive back was at 11pm from Hollywood. So there was no traffic, but it was still annoying because I was tired. But we did listen to a lot of great music. Like John Mayer, who I am gonna see on December 6th! Yay! And we listened to Eisley, who I have already seen. Wow, I don't think I realized how lucky I have been with seeing concerts, because a lot of people I know have not been to many.

Election

Yeah, Obama won, so what. McCain lost, so what. Prop 8 "passed" so what.
When people say things like, "I'm moving to Canada because Obama won." I feel like slapping them and saying, "People a lot stupider than Obama have been president. For real, check out the first 20 of them, nothing like Modern presidents." I mean, really, it is not going to make that big of a difference. And if it does, that might be a good thing, who knows, getting people to care about politics, not a bad thing. Wow I'm abusing the comma. I'll stop now I think.

In other news, I have been feeling ridiculously good lately, nothing can get me down, not even the flat tire I had yesterday. I guess with the downs come the ups. I like when I feel like this.

Give me all you've got, I can take it now.