Judging others.

Yesterday I commented (more to myself than anything) that there is this new blog that's around that is odd to me. Let me get some things straight:

1. I am truly sorry if I offended anyone with my previous post. It was just me expressing my thoughts and feelings. Me coping...
2. I have no problems with said blog. None what-so-ever.
3. Yes, I did say that the selfish part of me feels like it's ridiculous for people that hardly knew her to be so hurt. Once more, the selfish part of me. Aka the part of me that I'm trying not to let control me.
4. I totally understand that everyone copes with death in different ways. And I understand that even people who had only met her once would/could/should be affected by her passing.

Final thoughts, everyone judges people. It's a fact of being human. That being said, judging people and then acting upon those judgments, that's wrong. It is not wrong to judge people. But letting those judgments impact the way you treat the person, that's wrong.

So yes, perhaps I should have thought about the fact that some people actually do read my blog. But honestly my blog is here for me to express my thoughts to myself. And for me to keep a log for myself. And I don't think there is anything wrong with that.

Oh something that is funny to me and I mean no offence to anyone, it's just a funny thing about being human and the way our minds work, because I have done this before. Many times.

Telling someone not to judge, is judging them. It's an endless cycle.

Another example, say some anti-Christian advocate says it is wrong for Christians to push their views on other people...

Well, that anti-Christian advocate just pushed his views on Christians about the same thing...

It's just odd how circular everything is. Or perhaps eternal.

A blog...

There is this blog. Dedicated to a friend of mine who recently passed away. And I just don't know what to think about it...

I guess it's a sweet notion, but the selfish part of me thinks, who the hell are these people, and did they even really know her?!

But I guess I can understand, even just loosing a friend that you hardly knew can be very hard for people.

It's just weird to me that there is a blog about it...

):

People die. And I wish they didn't...

The Flat Earth Society

The Flat Earth Society

Yes, there are people in this world that believe that the earth is flat...

It's amazing what some people will believe based on what one Bible verse says...

http://www.fixedearth.com/

And yes, there are also people that believe that the heavens move around the earth. That we are the center of the universe...

It just makes me so sad when Christians/Taoists/Buddhists/whoever just throws science out the door.

And then there are people like the internet monk (:

Christians have nothing to fear from science. What we should be afraid of is being marginalized, not because of our thoughtful and considerate faith, but because we think it is somehow faithful to refuse to imagine we might be wrong in some of our assumptions or commitments.

-the internet monk

People that actually see that science and faith are not mutually exclusive. And that it does not take away from the message of the Bible/Torah/Quran/whatever if it is not 100% scientifically accurate. They are not books about science...

Hmm....

Belief is a wise wager. Granted that faith cannot be proved, what harm will come to you if you gamble on its truth and it proves false? If you gain, you gain all; if you lose, you lose nothing. Wager, then, without hesitation, that He exists.
Blaise Pascal

So that's nice and all, but that is only talking about a god of some kind? Or is it talking about Christianity? Because there are thousands of different gods to believe in. What if you pick the wrong one?

Ugh!

You know what, it really pisses me off when people don't provide any sources for the material...

I don't care about that one documented fact that you heard from your friend, who heard from his pastor, who heard from his professor...

Give me sources please.

First, scientists have been realizing for the better part of a century now that the physical world is too complex and finely tuned to have come into being by accident. For example, something as basic to life as the cell never could have evolved because it is a collection of complex machines made of molecules. Those molecule machines never would have evolved because their parts by themselves serve no survival purpose – and only features that serve a survival purpose develop by evolution. The cell – and many other complex aspects of our world – had to come into being just as they are, and that would only happen if they were designed by an intelligence far beyond ours. Science leads us to the conclusion that Creator God is real.

Second, Christianity is the only religious faith based on a historical fact that proves it is true beyond a reasonable doubt. The resurrection of Jesus from the dead validates His teaching about what God is like and how He expects us to live. Though many skeptics reject the resurrection as a myth, it is in fact far better documented than many other events in ancient history that people take for granted. None of the arguments skeptics offer can explain away the fact of the empty tomb. Skeptics reject the resurrection not for lack of evidence but because admitting it happened would require them to live a life that honors Christ, instead of living to satisfy their own appetites and ambitions.

If you can’t prove Christianity is true … « kainos

Where I'm at in life

There have been quite a few new developments in my life these last few weeks.
The primary one is, I'm not a Christian. I'm an atheist that is searching for Truth, if there is any. I don't believe that there is a god, but I'm open to the idea. I really want Christianity to be true, but there are just a few issues that I can't really get over. So I'm going to try to meet with some pastors and see what their thoughts are.
Second, I'm in counseling. Because I've been struggling with depression for the last six years, on and off. An acquaintance of mine who has had the same problem recently might have developed schizophrenia. I'm worried that the same thing might happen to me, so I'm being proactive in my mental health.
Those are the major two that I've working through right now.
If you know of any good people to talk to or books to read regarding Christianity, please do let me know.

This is confusion

I don't know, maybe it's just me? But the God of the Old Testament and the God of the New Testament, are NOT the same God. Because in the OT, He changes his mind. More than once. And in the NT, God never actually does anything, it's all Jesus. So how exactly do these two different ideas of God work? Because if the Bible is literal, as most Christians believe, then the God of the OT can NOT be the God of the NT. And I would LOVE for someone to try and help me figure this out. To try and make this work for me. Because I want to believe, I really, really do!
*sigh*
Not knowing that what you've been told to believe all your life is true, sucks.
And it's scary, yet exciting at the same time. The thought that maybe everything I've ever known is not true. That perhaps the only reason that I've ever believed any of that is because I was too afraid to really think for myself.
And so now, I'm thinking for myself and starting to figure out what/if I believe is what I'm doing.
At current I would be hesitant to call myself a Christian. So what would I call myself?
That's a damn good question...

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Sometimes life gets more and more confusing...

Love is

dead.
Great song. And it is so true as well.
Sure "love" exists. In so many different forms and shapes. But when you seek out the love that you always hear about in books, movies, and music. Well that does not end well. And maybe I'm just one of the unlucky people. Or maybe I just did not find the right person. Or maybe I'm just being stupid.
That's more than likely what is happening.

But as Kerli says:
"Love don't live here anymore"
Maybe someday it'll move back in?
But I doubt it. And I'm not even sure if I want to give it a chance again. It seems like it only works out 5 out of 100 times. 5% failure rate is pretty bad...
And then you have to go and get hurt every single time. So if you get lucky, and only have to search through 20 people before you "find love" is that worth it? Because 19 of those times either you hurt someone, or someone hurt you. And it's gonna hurt, a lot. It really does not matter who ended it or how.
So it looks like I'm back to square one. Being single and thinking I'l never get married. And not really believing in love. Besides, it's just a chemical reaction anyway. And then if it does not last forever, what do you do then? Just stick through it?
*sigh*

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Hahaha! Funny stuff.

My life

is getting more and more complicated. Oy. But it's not a bad thing. Just crazy. And weird.
And Ka$ha is quite amazing! So much fun to listen to! Gahh!!