Times like these
are confusing
not knowing what to do
how to treat
this...situation
Maybe I should follow
my instincts?
Perhaps I ought to
just...let it go

Why can't I get
you
out of my mind
away from my thoughts
You're gone now
to a place I can't go
there's no escaping it

Morality

What is morality? Is it just this odd word, that people use to describe odd situations in which we are supposed to make the "right" choice?
Or is there more to it?
Perhaps it is some concept of a...justice that is "above" us? Or maybe morality is just doing whatever a deity wants us to do?

Perhaps morality is just a word for a set of ideas and beliefs that people have that goes out the window when they are faced with the situation. Or was that ethics? ? ?

I can't wait
for the day
when I can say
"Who I am is
who I want to be."

Note: This might be a John Mayer lyric...nope. It's a Reba lyric...Though I've never heard her music.


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Love is a feeling
and a choice.
Not just one, but both.
Love without choice
is just infatuation.
Love without infatuation
is a dying love.
You can't just have one
really.
Both are necessary for that thing called
L.O.V.E.

-

Who are you
to judge my thoughts
my experiences
my actions?
I don't know who you are
hiding under a blanket
of internet anonymity.
Well good for you
I hope it helps
you deal with life
love
loss
or whatever it is that makes you
want to hide your identity
to question without accountability
or the trust
that you would need
to say these things
to me.

Connections?

It fascinates me that that attractive (aka pretty) people tend to hangout with pretty people and non-attractive people (aka train wreck) tend to hangout with other train wrecks. Why is that?

Is it because of some mystical force of the universe? Or is it simply because people tend to "connect" with those that are alike to them.

That's crazy talk, it has to be the mystical forces.

PS, if you like to watch canceled TV with attractive people, watch Dollhouse.

First love

you captured my heart

it was not just about the physical

despite what you may think

there was so much more to it

than that small aspect

of sex, lust, and infatuation

Believe me or not

it doesn't matter

not now

after shit went down

maybe one day things will change

you'll be free

from these thoughts 

of you and me

Being a romantic tends to not pay off...

Guys: the reason girls leave you for a "bad boy" is because you're not giving them enough adventure and spontaneity. Plus girls are weird... 

Looking at things from another point of view

First and foremost, don't trip.

Second, click on the picture to get the full size and clarity.

Third, I love, love, LOVE this picture. It is such a beautifully well done representation of how the other side, the "bad guys," view death of their people.

Looking back
on the memories
and the photographs
of you and me
the love we had
no
the love we shared
is beautiful.

You know what I hate?

I fraking hate, hate, HATE!!!!! Being on hold for hours. These stupid Info-Hold people will not answer the fraking call. I've been on hold for lifetimes. It is really starting to make me want to scream.

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I still don't feel better.
Frakers.

Girls and their drama.

You know what I don't like? Girls and their friendships. Why, oh why is it that girls have so much Fraking drama in their friendships? It makes no sense to me. And then when they are dating a guy and there is drama, who's to blame? The guy. Always.

Note to self: Don't EVER date a girl that has a lot of drama with her friends. Because if she does then there's going to be a LOT of drama in dating her.

Scott Pilgrim vs the World.

The movie was the shit!!

It was hilarious, interesting, fun, and soooo geeky!!! 

I need to stop this bullshit

just let it flow

not even care what it says

who I'm "talking" to

what I'm saying

I just need to get it out

of my system

off of my chest

onto the screen/paper/whatever

I used to care

about the order and structure

not anymore

it just takes too much effort

and kills the beauty

the mystery

the

magic?

The best thing

in this life of mine

is memories

of things I've done.

And the 2nd best is

the dreams of the future

where I'll be made

where I am who I am

because it's who I want to be.

That's what makes

this thing called life

so easy to put up with.

Abstinence

Honestly parents, if you don't want your kid to go out and have unprotected sex there are two different ways that you can help prevent it.

1. Abstinence based program:

Get him/her a subscription to WoW. It's a known fact that 99.243 percent of people are prone to WoW addiction. Once you get your child addicted, just be sure to control what they eat, you don't want them getting all fat and pimply do you? It's a known fact that fat/pimply teens get 18.6538% less action than non-fat/pimply teens. That's love, saving your children from themselves.

2. Sexual education based program:

Teach him/her how to use protection AND the evils of STDs. Knowing the risks of sex greatly increases the chance your child will use protection, IF they decide to get it on.

No YMCAs...

Why is it okay for someone to build a Catholic church near an elementary school, yet not okay for someone to build a Mosque near Ground Zero?

And why is it that the people that are dead-set on having "freedom" and "liberty" want to force Muslims to build their Mosque somewhere else?

Live life
make mistakes
don't worry about perfection
This life we live is short
there is no time to be wasted
nor to
....fuck it

I don't understand why people are so freaking ridicilus and stupid sometimes. Sigh

What am I doing to myself? Are things going to hurt really badly? Perhaps? But will it be totally and completely worth it in the end? I'm not really sure.

I think the heartbreak is worth the "love" though. I enjoy the little infatuation that I have. Sure it's not likely that things will work out. But it would be nice if they did...
Sometimes I get frusterated at life. Because sometimes the timing of things can be so off. Or so on. Depending on the situation.
But anyhow I meet this amazing, beautiful, interesting girl. We start to hangout and things are nice. The bad news, she left on Friday. For college in Northern California. Fuck.

*sigh*

People can be rather...

I absolutely love it when I get emails like this:

I tried everything still wont work so if you have a free time and you can help me that would be great. Thank you

Did you notice how informative it was? How much clarity about the situation he provided? 

I love it when my users send me clear and concise emails that describe their problem in whole. Not to mention the keen eye for grammar and spelling. 

Holy shit. Why is everyone buying engagement rings!! Okay maybe only two people I am close with, but still!!
It's not like it is bad. I'm actually happy for them. But it is just soooooo weird for me to think of my friend's being married.
It's tripping me out!

Life is taking an interesting turn for the better.

Love
that emotion that people feel
it makes them all warm and fuzzy inside
their heads, minds, and bodies.
Reality
that thing that hinders love
life and sex.

Why must it always happen this way?
Is there some magical word
to say
some magical thing
to do
that can fix this rift
between me and you?

I'm a fool
letting you take
that piece of my heart,
knowing you would,
thinking it would be worth it,
will it be?
I don't know
about later
but now
it hurts.
Realizing you'll be gone soon
having the time of your life
slowly forgetting
the time we've had.

But that's life
that's how it goes
you live
you love
you forget.

I've been learning a lot about NLP and psychology these last few weeks. Not just a little bit. I mean most of my spare time has been spent with people actually observing the way they act. The way they think.
I've learned to start asking a LOT of questions of people. Why they did this, why they think that. Stuff of that sort.
And it has been a great learning experience for me. Although this great learning experience has come at a great peril. I can read people's emotions a lot better than I used to be able to. To the point where I can tell if someone's hiding their true emotions every once in awhile. I'm not very good at it, but I'm so glad to be learning it.
The downside, is that there are things I've learned that I didn't expect. And it really is weird.

Let me impart a little advice, if you're one of the, "ignorance is bliss" kind of people, don't every look into psychology, NLP, or deception detection. Because then you start to understand how/why people think and act the way they do. And you'll know more often when they are lying. I have barely even started to research, yet I've already learned so much and changed so much.

It is weird being able to tell when you're friends are lying.

The tension is great
the way we sit
looking at each other
wondering what if.
But we both know
things won't work now
so we pretend
there's no connection.
But maybe one day
after things have cleared
we'll both realize
the time is come
for love to resound.

What is sanity anyway?

Questioning your sanity is never a fun thing. Yesterday I dealt with a lot of that. Like I seriously did not know who to trust in the most awkward situation. Basically I was the middle man for a ridiculous situation. I was doing everything I could to NOT be the middle man. But I was friends with both parties and I basically did not have much choice but to hear both their sides of the story. Then I was talking to x and trying to not think of/say what y had said. It was not cool, not fun, and very nerve-wrecking. 

It got so bad that I didn't know if y's friend z was "in on it" or if I was just being paranoid. Then I wondered if z's bf was also in on it.

It was so bad I didn't know if I could even trust x.

I legitimately thought that everyone was out to get me and that I couldn't trust anyone.

Not a fun situation. And it's situations like that that cause me to question my sanity. Not fun. Not fun at all.

The worst thing every is being paranoid about being paranoid.

Because I can and want to post this I will

A friend wrote a post about friends with benefits and/or F*** buddies. It got me to thinking about these lyrics from good ol' John:
Friends, lovers, or nothing 
There can only be one 
Friends, lovers, or nothing 
We'll never be the in-between 
So give it up 


I totally understand this now. Because those types of relationships rarely, if ever, work.

No title fits this post

Written 7/28/10

I totally understand why people use other people. It totally makes sense. Because when you just use people you don't get attached. You just "get your fill" and then don't care.
You don't emotionally invest in the person. You don't get attached. And I know why that would seem like the desierable thing to do.
It's because when you're attached, you actually care for the person as a person. They are "real" to you. Not just something to be used.

I don't know if this makes any sense at all...
Let's try again, we'll just use guys as an example.

The reason that guys just use girls for sex is because they don't want to get attached emotionally. They want to seperate their feelings from the sitaution/person.
There are plenty of times that you can just hook up and be done with it. But that's only if both parties want that. Or if it is before they are attached.

Update 8/6/10

The thing is though, it is so much better to be attached, even if it doesn't work out. Not to the point where this one person is your whole world, that's not a fun place to be. What you want is a bit of attachment, but not enough to get jealous/paranoid/other negative emotions.Once you get there you start looking to make the relationship "exclusive" or "real" or something crazy like that.

Dear Prop 8 supporters,

Please know that the point of the government is to provide order and structure, including protecting people's rights. Especially the minority. Ergo even if it is popular to discriminate against gay marriage, the government must side with those discriminated against. And why is that? Well look up the California Constitution (Article 1, Sec 7) and the 14th amendment to the United States Constitution.

Thanks,

Adam

Bullshit to english translation to rule them all!

Best translation ever!

The author then quotes what she found to be an encouraging thought:

“Many people run from any consideration of the Bible once they find such a biblical passage. I counsel them instead to slow down and try out several different perspectives on the issues that trouble them. That way they can continue to read, learn, and profit from the Bible even as they continue to wrestle with some of its concepts. One possibility I urge them to consider is that the passage that bothers them might not teach what it appears to them to be teaching. Many of the texts people find offensive can be cleared up with a decent commentary that puts the issue into historical context” (Tim Keller, The Reason for God).

Translated , this means:

“Instead of realizing the Bible is wrong on a topic like sexism against women (which we know it is, but can’t accept since we believe our god inspired it as Capital-T-Truth™), make sure you try really hard to make up a new meaning from the text that isn’t actually there. Don’t let passages bother you if you can explain them away through commentary from a totally non-Biblical human source. We’re Christians. We can rationalize anything” (Godless Girl, who knows bullshit when she reads it).

HT GoddlessGirl 

I'm an idiot.

Why, oh why did I put myself in this situation?

I don't even know what to say, what to do, how to act. I'm just going with the flow, pretending I'm alright. Like I'm not attached.

But that's not true. How could it be true?

I'm not a robot (HT Marina and the Diamonds)

I'm just a man. I have "feelings" aka emotions aka stupid pointless left over animal instincts.

Fuck me. I'm so stupid.

Apparently on a bad day it only takes 3 negative events to ruin my months of work.

Trying desperately to be "okay" 

To be a normal human being that enjoys life.

But no, I'm just a miserable, depressed person. Trying my best to put on a smile and see if that makes everything better.

I'll probably snap out of this tomorrow and feel much better about my life.

But for now it really sucks. Must gather the energy to let myself be okay.

Moral of the story:

Don't fall in love.

Scratch that, fall in love. Just know that at some point you are going to be hurting more than you can imagine.

I'm a fucking idiot. And I don't even know why I'm posting this right now. 

For sympathy? So someone will be concerned and call me?

Why is it I'm so self-centered? Perhaps one day I'll know.