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Surviving the World - Recitation 14 - Love

Surviving the World - Recitation 14 - Love

I LOVE This!!

The Matrix's Bullet-Dodging Scene, Faithfully Recreated in Lego - Lego matrix - io9

Amazing!!!

Wow.

see more Epic Fails

Waayyyyy tooo funnyy!!!
Gahhh!!

Smurf's Communist Leanings

Smurf's Communist Leanings: "The Smurfs Were Communists!
By Dave Morgan"

Very interesting...

Waves

It still amazes me, how everything in life seems to come in waves.

Waves of profound inspiration
Waves of overwhelming joyousness
Waves of sorrow
Waves of people in line for Space Mountain
Waves of productivity
Waves of interest
Waves of traffic on the freeway

And there are always those waves, when something is really popular. Everyone enjoying it. Then it slowly starts to loose it's popularity.
Awhile later it is popular again.
Some call it the ebb and flow of life, which is understandable.
But there is just something about the word "wave" that I really like.

Where the Wild Things Are

People die

And it sucks.

Depressed

Something I've noticed, is when I get depressed it takes me somewhere between two weeks to several months to figure out a very simple statement:
Happiness is a state of being.
And I know there are times when you feel happy, or you feel sad, but to be consistently overwhelmed by depression. That's not normal. And I'm not sure exactly why, or how, or when it just clicks in my mind. But after some amount of time being depressed, I just realize, I don't need to put up with this shit right now. I can do whatever the fuck I want.
I'm my own person.
I can be happy if I want to.

The funny thing is, when I am feeling so down, people always try to tell me that it's all in my head, yet I don't listen to them. I guess it is because I'd rather lay in my misery. Alone.
Stupid shit I do sometimes...

Thank God I'm out of it for now.

Sometimes

I change a bunch of settings on Firefox, seeing if I can get it to almost be as fast as Google Chrome. And they worked (:
Yay!

Ps, Linux kicks some serious ass, you should check it out (:
Ubuntu is the way to go in terms of user friendly linux.

Ass?

	Apparently they took the word ass of the radio. Am I slow ir is this new?

Like waves

Blogs are like the waves. They really are. Very few people just keep on blogging. Sometimes it is because summer hits and they are just to busy with everything going on in their lives. Sometimes it is because they just get burnt out.
And it is amazing how a group of people will blog all the time. Then all-of-a-sudden everyones just kind of stops. Like a set of waves.
Oh, everyone is blogging again, here I go to.
Then it just slowly dies down.

It is so strange.

Well I'm going to keep blogging, even if it is very infrequently (:

So anyhow, something that has seriously been on my mind a lot is how much I love my darling. It is odd, not that I love her, but how quickly she has become a huge part of my life. And I'm totally okay with that.
I figure, everything happened too perfectly for it to be chance.
God must have put her into my life for a reason.
And I'm so thankful that he did (:

In other news, I am soo excited and nervous for the start of my new job tomorrow.
Working in Mira Loma.
On computers.
I'm so excited that I'm going to have two legit computer-based jobs (:
I'm going to be working at Payment Recycling Systems.
Just making sure that everything goes well on the computer/server/user error side of things.
And! I'm probably going to be able to visualize their servers into one sick box someday (:
I love virtualizing servers.

The only sad thing about getting this new job is that I'm only going to be working at the book bindery two or three times a month. On Saturdays.
Don't get me wrong, I've never loved that job.
But I love my co-workers.
They were and have always been amazing.
My boss is pretty awesome too, just sometimes he gets irritation.
But bosses do that...
It's kinda their job...


Oh boy, life is going to be amazing! I'm going to feel so rich!
Even though I'll just be getting by.
It's really that fact that I don't have a family to support that makes me feel so rich.
But someday that might change.
More likely than not I'm going to end up getting married.
But the thought of children scare the hell out of me...
I just know I've done a lot of things that my parents have not and would not be proud of.
And I don't know, maybe I would be a good father, someday, but what if I seriously fucked a kid up?
The thought is not one I like to have very often...

This it is

This is love. I know it is.
What else could it be?
To want to be with someone, even when you are annoyed at them.
Or feeling sick.
Or just like you want to be alone.
Even then, I want to be with her.
So I know, this is love.

Nukes

I had a dream last night...
I was at my parents, then Kyle needed someone to help him and his dad move. So I have a truck and thought I might be of use. We moved his stuff, no big deal. He moved out to the middle of no-where. There were a lot of trees and I had to take a random freeway, get off, and then drive for a long time, through what seemed like San Francisco. After I arrived we unloaded the stuff and chilled for awhile. There was a massive lake about 100 feet from his house. All of a sudden a massive missile and a F-16 jet when whizzing by. I looked and then out of the lake hundreds of nuclear missiles came flying out of the lake.
I said, "Oh God... I need to go see if my family is okay."
So I ran to my truck and drove home. On my way, in the streets of psudo-San Francisco, a weird guy with white hands and a black robe tried to steal my car. Or maybe kill me? I don't know exactly, but I just kept driving fast. He ran for me, and he nearly caught me. That was a scary moment.
Everything was looking good when I got to the freeway, but there were no cars. None at all. Freaky...
I got back home and hardly parked my car, I ran inside to see what was going on. My house was empty...
Completely empty. No mom. No dad. No brother or sisters. I started to freak out. Then I prayed, and thought, maybe this is just a dream...
That's when I woke up. Terrified.

It's odd, because I'm not one to remember my dreams, but lately I've been having a lot of nightmares, and remembering them. I wonder why that is.
*sighs* I hope that never happens in my lifetime. . .

Midnight thoughts

I think that midnight is a great time for me to blog (:
Everything from the day is in my mind.
Swirling in the pool on thought that is Adam's mind.

Future reference for anyone. If a filling falls out, get to a dentist, ASAP!
I was a fool and let it kick around for a year or so. This has caused a great deal of pain lately.
The whole right side of my face is swollen.
Not fun. . .
And! I still have to go to the dentist to get it fixed.
Though I'm hoping the antibiotics will help the swelling.

In other news, I'm going to start putting myself on a daily budget.
Meaning I can only spend ten dollars a day.
That puts me at about three hundred dollars a month of play money.
So I'm really excited to start that plan next month!

Having a significant other is so strange to me. . .
I like it though.
It's just hard at times to remember that I have to think about her feelings.
I can't just go out and do something.
She has to be considered before I do most things.
Like get a hair cut.
Sure she's not going to dump me because of it.
But it's not cool to just go and surprise her with something like that.
It's still so foreign to me.

There is this amazing art gallery on Vine street. Right by my place.
And tonight, before I deposited my check, I figured it would be neat to see the current set up.
So I went up stairs and there was this piece. Glass and metal work. Tangible.
Sooo legit!!
I love it.
I totally would be grateful to buy that.
So I think that at the beginning of next month I'm going to save up and get it (:
I don't even know where to put it. . .
But I HAVE to have it.
I don't think this is just an impulse buy, is it?
Well I hope not. . .

It's after midnight now and I should try to get some sleep.
Long day ahead of me tomorrow.

Oh hi!

Sometimes when I'm walking by someone and they say hi to me. I mouth the word hi and slightly awkwardly wave. It is something I totally do on accident. And I just realized it. It's a half-hearted hi. Mostly to people I don't want to say hi to.
I'm weird. . .

A horrible fate

Check it
XKCD "Friends"

Living on my own

is amazing.
And terrifying.

But so worth it (:

Tiles

I do this. . .
All the time.

http://xkcd.com/245/

Moved out.

Hello world.
I was so tempted to just publish that. . .
She would have laughed at me though. Anyway.

Yeah, I've moved out of my parent's house. It is weird. And amazing. I'm glad that they are being so supportive about it.

Yep. I'll probably add to this later. . .

Something's wrong with me

because right now I'm feeling horrible. Yet today was actually a great day. Then one word fucked it up. And it really depressed me. It sucks. It really sucks.

Remembering

My brain works very oddly. Because when I'm in one mood, I tend to remember and forget things.
For example when everything is going well I tend to forget all the bad things that have happened and remember the good.
When things are lame I remember the bad and forget the good.

It's not like I really forget everything good, but I tend to view those smaller nice moments as less than they were.
And that's why I really should try to keep up with my blog and journal. So when I'm down I can remember the good, and when I'm up I remember that everything's not perfect.
I wonder if I'm the only one that thinks like this. . .

Wow.

I'm soo excited! I'm seriously considering moving out. To the extent that I've already looked at one place, and I'm going to see another tomorrow. Wow, this is going to be crazy/excited/scary/who knows what else.
I could be in my own place in two weeks, or sooner. wow.

Days

like this are weird.

School.

I don't really like that I have to go to school.
That I don't have the ability to just go.
Just do whatever I want to do without a crapload of schooling.
Ugh!