Something I've noticed, is when I get depressed it takes me somewhere between two weeks to several months to figure out a very simple statement:
Happiness is a state of being.
And I know there are times when you feel happy, or you feel sad, but to be consistently overwhelmed by depression. That's not normal. And I'm not sure exactly why, or how, or when it just clicks in my mind. But after some amount of time being depressed, I just realize, I don't need to put up with this shit right now. I can do whatever the fuck I want.
I'm my own person.
I can be happy if I want to.
The funny thing is, when I am feeling so down, people always try to tell me that it's all in my head, yet I don't listen to them. I guess it is because I'd rather lay in my misery. Alone.
Stupid shit I do sometimes...
Thank God I'm out of it for now.
That's a really good realization. I'm going to quote that to you next time! ;)
ReplyDeleteBut in defense of the point of view you have shared with me before, I do agree that sometimes these feelings can be strong, and there is not much you can do but ride them out for the time being. I love you, I'm so glad that you are so strong. <33 Gabriella