Some fav quotes (:

"If you take sexually advantage of her you'll burn in a special level of hell. One reserved for child molesters and people who talk at the theater."
Firefly


"Sleep is for the mentally stable."
A


"You know what the chain of command is? It's the chain I get and beat you with until you understand who's in ruttin' command."
Firefly


"The hammer is my penis."
Dr. Horrible


"We get into relationships to feel intense feelings."
Lonny Huff


"The world is a mess. And I just need to rule it."
Dr. Horrible


"When she dies, I'll paint my face in war colors are her funeral. Everybody will be drinking. We'll all feel painfully alone at the exact same time."
Lonny Huff 


"The vagina is a weird place. It's like outer space."
K


"When you understand why you dismiss all the other possible gods, you will understand why I dismiss yours."
Steeven F. Roberts


"Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils."
Louis Hector Berlioz

"I took a speed reading course and read “War and Peace” in twenty minutes. It involves Russia."  
Woody Allen

“There are two novels that can change a bookish fourteen-year old’s life: The Lord of the Rings and Atlas Shrugged . One is a childish fantasy that often engenders a lifelong obsession with its unbelievable heroes, leading to an emotionally stunted, socially crippled adulthood, unable to deal with the real world. The other, of course, involves orcs."
-John Rogers 

Renewed sense of ....

I'm playing a game

it might be a good idea

might be bad...

I don't particularly care 

not anymore, really

Before, I'd care

a lot

what changed?

oh, yeah.

Everything changed!

It is a fun game though

meant to be played solo

just me, myself ,and I

playing a good game

that might be bad.

We'll see soon enough

when the results come in

For now, I'll just play

this game of

fun

secret

mind

spirit

body

love

and all that jazz

Don't ask me what this games

all about

Honestly I have not a clue

but one day 

perhaps I'll know

what this games all about.

An outline or something like that

1. Me
1. Thoughts
1. Self
1. Narcissist
2. Rational
3. Emotional
4. Empathetic
2. City
1. Small
2. Wealthy
3. Sweet
4. Fun
3. Nation
1. Liberty
2. United
3. Under-thinking
4. Overweight
4. World
1. Overpopulated
2. Underdeveloped
3. Green
4. Water
5. Mankind
2. Urges
1. Understanding
1. Self
2. Others
3. Love
4. Why
2. Money
3. Sex
4. Power
3. Emotions
1. Selfish
2. Understanding
1. How
2. Why
3. Who
4. Where
5. When
3. Love
1. Confusion
2. Frustration
3. Anger
4. Apathy
2. Knowledge
1. Experience
1. Hard way
1. All
2. Easy way
1. None
2. Taught
1. Ignored
3. Advice
1. Tried
1. True
2. Helpful
3. Others

Fuck

this feeling...

Thoughts on my recent feelings

Ugh!!

My emotions are driving me crazy!! I just can't decide!

The frustrating thing is that logic pretty much is balanced, for or against...
So the deciding factor should be my emotions, but they are changing every damn day! I just hate it when shit like this happens to me, why, oh why, can't I just decide and not be so confused...

Not alone.

I'm so glad to know I'm not the only one that felt this way when I lost my faith:

These discoveries scared me. It was not what I had wanted to learn. But now I hadto know the truth. I studied the Historical Jesus, the history of Christianity, the Bible, theology, and the philosophy of religion. Almost everything I read – even the books written by conservative Christians – gave me more reason to doubt, not less.

I started to panic. I felt like my best friend – my source of purpose and happiness and comfort – was dying. And worse, I was killing him. If only I could have faith! If only I could unlearn all these things and just believe. I cried out with the words from Mark 9:24, "Lord, help my unbelief!"

I tried. For every atheist book I read, I read five books by the very best Christian philosophers. The atheists made plain, simple sense, and the Christian philosophers were lost in fog of big words that tried to hide the weakness of their arguments.

I did everything I could to keep my faith. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't force myself to believe what I knew wasn't true. On January 11, 2007, I whispered to myself: "There is no God."

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