Music, oh music

Warning this is a bit of swearing in the song lyrics. But other than that this song speaks a lot about what a broken heart is. Not a so-and-so-broke-up-with-me broken heart, but a seriously damaged heart. And I love how it starts and ends. There development of the character in the song is real. Starting off trying to "fix" a broken heart. And ending with a broken heart that "you never get used to it/you just have to live with it" Quite a development.
Am I the only one that "gets" these lyrics? Or is this just my interpretation.

"Broken Heart" by Motion City Soundtrack

I’ll start this broken heart
I’ll fix it up so it will work again
Better than before
Then I’ll star in a mystery
A tragic tale of all that’s yet to come
Fingers crossed there will be love

But I get carried away with every day
And every fantasy
The deeper the wound,
The harder I swoon and wish that that was me
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it

I’ll devise the best disguise
A brand new look and take them by surprise
They’ll never guess what’s not inside
I’ll express myself with ease,
With confidence and character complete
With fingers crossed, they’ll talk to me

But I get carried away with every page
In every magazine
The cheaper the thrill,
the deeper I fill my head with blasphemy
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it

I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone

But I get carried away
With every phrase and made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies,
The more I disintegrate
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
You never get used to it
You just have to live with it

Think about it.

Sometimes I read books that drastically change how I think of some subjects. Like this book that I'm reading right now, The Science of God by Gerald L. Schroeder. This book is about "The convergence of scientific and biblical wisdom." So whatever that means. I have yet to finish the book, but so far it is very thought provoking.

Seriously! People say that the theory of the big bang is not big enough for God. That he is above that. But really, believing that Earth exists even though our chances were so close to zero it is ridic-ulous. It is almost a mathamatical impossibility that the Earth exists with the life that it has. It was all perfect. Everything went perfectly for life to be created. If you think of it like that then the big bang is not a small feat. People don't really think about it. 

So think about it.

HSM3

Once upon a time, a silly college student named Adam decided to go see the midnight showing of High School Musical 3 with his friends. This was not such a silly idea, because the movie was fun, and everything he expected it to be. There was dancing, singing, and all around awesome/corny/ridic-ulous stuff going on.He enjoyed the movie, after it finished he said goodnight to his friends and headed for home, where he was to watch The Office. He thought that if he would go to sleep at 2:30 in the morning that he would be unable to wake the next morning for work. While he might have been right about this, it was likely a worthy risk, seeing as sleep is so precious. But no, he decided to stay up all night. Then at five in the morning he was extra tired and thought, "Maybe if I just lay on my back, I can't get good sleep like that, I wake up super easily." This may seem like a bad idea, but it worked out just fine. He was able to set an alarm that actually woke him up. Then he got out of bed, wishing for sleep, and decided that an hour is not enough. But he had to eat and get ready for the day. So he continued to go through his day, everything just the same. The lesson is this, if you decide to sleep, be sure that you do, because lack of sleep can be fatal to you.

Yes, No? You tell me.

So this is what I wrote before. Like a week ago. Man that feels like a lifetime ago. Well anyhow I don't really think that I agree with that anymore. I mean, does it matter if people are same-sex and married? Not really, what's going to change? And please, PLEASE don't give me that, "Parental Rights" crap. If you don't want your child to learn about something in school, tell their teacher. Legally they have to obey your wishes, so that argument holds no water.
And the worst thing is how many people are going to vote on Prop 8 not even knowing what it is about. Just voting yes/no because that's what they have seen. Or that's what people from their church/school are doing.

Prop 8 is really just a fight about the word "marriage". The Christians don't like the idea of same-sex couples being "married". They will put up with them having their "civil union", or their "domestic partnership" but not with the word "marriage". And I can understand that, being as that word has always meant man and woman. I have never been the person to say, "I have my truth and you have yours". In the same way I know that "marriage" has always been defined as man and woman. Biblically speaking, homosexuality is wrong. But I don't think that Christians should treat a person any differently because they are homosexual. They still need Jesus as much as anyone, maybe more.
But I don't think that "marriage" should be changed to define two people. It was meant for man and woman and I think it should be changed back. I'm not hating anybody, I just don't understand why people have to have these relationship called "marriage". I don't think a yes or no on 8 is going to change anything besides the definition of the word. It is not going to be easier for homosexual couples to prove they are indeed "joined by state". Even if they have a license for marriage, people will not go along with it unless they see it. It is the same if that piece of paper says, "civil union".
My biggest problem with this is the possible implications that it would have on churches. People say a church is discriminating because they don't marry gay couples. But this is something that is in the Bible. If you have a value and someone tells you to break it or get in trouble, do you break your values? Or do you uphold them? All-in-all I think that a no on 8 would just make things a lot harder for churches across California.

I'm voting yes on it, and you should think a lot before you vote about it. It really is a big issue, even if it is just a small definition.

Flying?

Yesterday was a very strange day, I almost (figuratively) died. I was in a very odd mood all day. Then after work I got home and had to make plans to do something today. It was weird, I felt like I had to make those plans or I would die, I didn't think I would die, I just knew something would change drastically if I did not make plans. Maybe I would have stopped caring to hang out with people? I don't know. I do know that it seemed like something that could have changed my whole life. And not for the better. . .

The desperation was scary. Especially since lately I have not cared about much. It was like waking up from a nightmare that was so real you woke up and were still shaking. I have only had two dreams like that, pure insanity.

In other news I voted, good ol' absenty ballet :) 

I ended up voting for McCain because as much as I dislike him and Palin, I tend to dislike Obama a little bit more, not much mind you. Speaking of Palin, I think I like Tina Fey as Sarah Palin more than the real one. She just is so funny and very believable. Amazing. 

Wow, my mind is flying today. . . I used to beable to write something a little coherent, not anymore. Here comes senility years early. . .

Classic Crime

One of my favorite bands is The Classic Crime, seriously you should check them out. One of their songs that I have always thought I related with I decided to look up the lyrics, and boy do they relate. It is almost like they are calling me, like these lyrics were written for/about me. Check it:

Twenty two years have passed by
As I contemplate
I can recall you getting me out of every scrape
What comes first to my mind
Was the change that I so desperately needed to make
Day and night, frozen silent in blinding violent fear
A song for my fight
Comes spilling the words I so desperately needed to hear

Do you know this song's for you?
My heart goes out to the hurt you feel inside

What hurts more than just dying
Is living barely alive
After all it's easier than falling short every time
I felt the pain and set fire 
To the grace that I so desperately needed to take
Day and night, frozen silent in blinding violent fear
A song for my fight
Comes spilling the words I so desperately needed to hear

Do you know this song's for you?
My heart goes out to the hurt you feel inside
Do you know this song's for you?
My heart goes out to the hurt you feel

I was brought up through the ashes
Like a phoenix birthing wings
And I will fight for my disasters
I will take the flight of kings
And if your life is ever tortured
Or if you know the pain I sing
Then will you sing with me this chorus
And we will cut through people's hearts and free them

Do you know this song's for you?
My heart goes out to the hurt you feel inside
Do you know this song's for you?
My heart goes out to the hurt you feel

Wow, talk about amazing. Not only are there amazing Biblical truths in there, but there are also the reasons that people do stupid stuff and they don't know why. . .

And every one of their songs are this amazing. Great, poetic lyrics and enjoyable musicianship.

Politics

I hate politics, why? Because when there was someone that was amazing and would have been able to pull us out of the current crisis, which will just get worse, nobody voted for him. I am speaking about Ron Paul. He was a smart, smart man. He knows how our ridiculous system of money and debt work. He knows that we are just creating money out of thin air. This causes everything to get worse, not better, because people start to say things cost more. That is why the US Dollar has such little value.

Sad, I wish that our economy wasn't dying. . . Time to move to. . . Austria?

Waking

Strange, how I used to be able to get to places on-time/early/not late. Now it seems like I am always running late. I wonder what has changed that makes is so I can't wake up on time/forget about time/take forever getting ready/drive slower. I don't get it. 

Well whatever it is is sure is getting really annoying. I can set my alarm for six forty and I'll still wake up at seven forty and have to rush to work. But then on Saturday, after being out till one in the morning, I was able to get up at eight so easily. I actually got less sleep that night. So I wonder if this is all just psychological? 

Whatever the case I think my "wake up" thingie is broken in my brain. It just works so sporadically.

Lifehouse

Ugh, another person blogging about that band, I know. But wait! I'm blogging about the theatre in Redlands! So anyhow, one day (Saturday) I went with some friends to go and see the production of Aladdin that was playing at the Lifehouse theatre. So the music was good and the singing and dancing was fun. I'm not at all saying it was the best thing ever, but I did enjoy it. One of the interesting things about Lifehouse shows is the Christian-ness that they have. In Aladdin the key Biblical phrases were, "Guard your heart", "Be content with what you have", and "greed is bad". Well they may have been said differently and whatnot, but this is coming from memory, so just go with it.
Not only that but yes, there was a person (spotlighted none-the-less) translating to American Sign Language. It was a very "Christian" event. And I think I need to tell John Acuff that Lifehouse is one to add to the list.

Hate

Sometimes I hate people. Story time! So at Disneyland there was this guy behind us in the Indiana Jones line, which is no big deal but he started talking to us. Normally I am so for meeting random strangers and having a conversation with them. But this guy was just annoying. So after the conversation was over he kept trying to worm into our conversations. We would be talking about school and he would say something to the extent of, "blah, blah, blah, one time I spent an entire class playing WoW(that is World of Warcraft for those who don't know)." Then he went on to explain how he did it. This was not only ridiculous and random, but it was nerdy beyond belief. And as a bit of a geek/nerd myself I know where that line is. Most people would be chill with you telling them one time you played WoW in class, but how you were able to, come on!

OH! And he was walking behind me and kept brushing the back of my caffs and almost stepped on the back of my shoe, causing it to come off and forcing me to kill him. Luckily for him this never happened.

 

P.S. Reality Television sucks. Yeah most/all of it is lamesause. But I really do enjoy Ninja Warrior, which is what real Reality Television should be like.

 

P.P.S. It feels good to feel good :)

Girls

Why is it that it seems like every girl I know, well the serious Christian ones, are always dating older guys? Not just a year or so, but sometimes upwards of three years. I just don't get it, I mean, yeah if you "fall in love" then whatever, but most of the time these girls don't really put themselves into a position where they would date guys their own age. I just find it slightly annoying because there are plenty of great guys around your age range, yet you go for someone so much older. I've heard people say, "security and maturity" but I think that is kind of an excuse. *Shrugs* I don't know, I wonder what people think on the subject.

Also weird, the guys that are dating girls that are sooooo much younger, not so normal, well I guess it is, but it totally shouldn't be. I think the main one for this is, "all the 'good' girls marry young" or something ridiculous like that. People just go and hang out with people your own age, it's not that hard. Again, people that have actual knowledge on the subject, it would be cool to know what you think.

Care

I wonder what it would be like to care, to really care. Because lately I just have not cared about a lot of things; school, work, people, etc. I keep doing things that are hindering relationships, that are impairing my ability to get homework done. I just don't get it. It is not like I'm addicted to drugs or anything, but I just don't care. Sometimes I think it would be better to be addicted to drugs, because then I could stop. But I can't force myself to care. Take waking up for example, I can't do it. This morning I remember turning my blaring alarm off at 7. Why I didn't get up, I don't know. And then I got to work late, which is something I should very much care about, but I don't.
And John Mayer always makes life that much more livable. Many i really rely on his music to keep me going. Like literally. It is kind of weird, but that's life.