Care

I wonder what it would be like to care, to really care. Because lately I just have not cared about a lot of things; school, work, people, etc. I keep doing things that are hindering relationships, that are impairing my ability to get homework done. I just don't get it. It is not like I'm addicted to drugs or anything, but I just don't care. Sometimes I think it would be better to be addicted to drugs, because then I could stop. But I can't force myself to care. Take waking up for example, I can't do it. This morning I remember turning my blaring alarm off at 7. Why I didn't get up, I don't know. And then I got to work late, which is something I should very much care about, but I don't.
And John Mayer always makes life that much more livable. Many i really rely on his music to keep me going. Like literally. It is kind of weird, but that's life.