Poetry and Memory

One of the more fun things that I've been doing is working on my memory lately.
I've got the memory palaces going (building a bunch of them currently), and I've started to slowly memorize my list of 100 people for the Dominic System. And the KEY part is that I'm actively using the people from the Dominic System to memorize numbers. Need to keep it fresh.
With all that going on too I wanted to memorize some poetry too (I have always loved poetry). I figured that it would be fun and help me to eliminate those periods of "down time" while I'm driving, walking, etc.
Thus far I've gotten three poems memorized, working on the fourth.

Here's my ongoing lists:

Memorized:
If by Rudyard Kipling
The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
Love by Roy Craft
Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost (IP)

To Memorize:

The Latin

I'm currently in the LONG process of learning Latin, classical Latin. I can not wait until I can read Latin fluently (five years or less). 

It's interesting to start taking Latin after having taken Spanish 1 and ASL 1. I find it fascinating how different Latin is from English. American English is so much more complicated than Latin. 

How to a....

I must say, this makes me very sad.

Are there that many guys/boys that don't know how to ask a girl out?!

Idealism? Perhaps, but what bad does it do?

I read this article on Life hacker and wanted to share this comment that "TheNimboo" shared:

I've always been considered to be one of those people who were "good at everything he touched." I credit my being able to do this to a curious belief I held very tightly as a kid, one similar to the ideas that this article is talking about. The belief was that "anyone can be good at anything if they tried hard enough."

I remember telling my parents this several times, and each time they'd tell me that this wasn't true, and that I was simply "gifted" in that area. You know what happened when I started to believe them later in life, in High School? I stopped being good at everything. I started thinking "well I seem to be good at things, so maybe I don't need to approach X subject like anyone else, maybe I need to rely on my "giftedness." Boy did I ditch that theory fast. This taught me something very important about life. I realized that what made me appear to others as being great at everything took, in my own head, a lot of work. For some reason others always assumed that what I did was automatic. What I did took effort that, (as far as I was concerned) anyone could do if they were to try hard enough. The only difference between me and others was that I had this deep inner belief that to be good at anything, I simply had to discover what "mindset" people who were good at that subject used.

With this mindset in gear, I became proficient at many hobbies as a young kid, and then excelled in subjects later in life. I took up magic tricks, piano, legos (muaha), origami, rollerblading, computers. I was second place in a math olympiad, yet I was also able to get 1st place in a national journalism Photo contest (against 300 other photographers at community colleges) twice for my feature photography work. I then turned to science, got an AS in biology, but eventually switched to a more philosophy type major (with computer science and artificial intelligence, neuroscience mixed in). Still in school now so we'll see how that turns out :P.

I contribute all of this to a lifelong resistance to the idea that anyone can become a "Math Person" or a "science person" or an "artist." To me I can be equally good in all of these fields. Anyone can. I honestly believe that the only reason people don't try new things is that they somehow allow themselves to be tricked into thinking that they are only good at one thing. A single bad experience with a subject can cause someone to believe they don't have a chance at being good at it - a phenomenon very similar, I would think, to the ways people pick out their favorite types of alcohol (lifehacker ran an article about this a while ago - found out that if people threw up or had a bad time with a type of drink once, they will likely begin avoiding that drink indefinitely, possibly without consciously realizing why they've "always hated beer").

I would also like to say though, briefly, that doing this may come at a cost. I don't personally believe in "finding yourself" either. To me, I can't. Many people find this idea to be uncomfortable. As far as I'm concerned, "finding yourself" is the same thing as labeling yourself to be a "science person" or a "musician" or an "artist" or a "math geek." I'm talking socially though. It is essentially saying that you are tired of accumulating bits of yourself from everywhere. You have been socialized enough, it is now time to lock the floodgates, to stand firmly behind what you currently believe in. It is declaring that you are from now on going to be more resistant to ideas that oppose the view you are siding with, and you are going to more easily believe in what is in general agreement with the camp you are siding with. How do you ever decide when to do this? Why not be open your entire life? Why not NEVER be sure that what you currently believe in is the "right" thing to believe in?

Just keep this thought in mind, it helps me: Are you willing to admit to yourself that at any time in the past, after you were exposed to a great deal more information about any topic, you changed your mind? Perhaps you became a vegetarian after learning about how animals were treated, or after realizing our brains are made of the same stuff, I dont' know pick your example. If you are willing to admit this to yourself, now ask yourself whether you know everything about every subject. If you are willing to admit that you do not know everything about every subject, wouldn't it follow that there are millions of potential "mind changing" occurrences out there in your life, just waiting to happen? Wouldn't it follow that knowing who you are is extremely dependent on the information and experiences that you have been exposed to? Are you willing to make that the basis for "who you are?" The things you have been exposed to are largely out of your control. Even if you do "control" what you do and what you learn, just the idea itself that there are many potential ideas out there that if known would alter me makes me feel that it is utterly impossible to feel strongly about things. Why boisterously convince others of my current mindset when I KNOW that I need to be willing to change it in the future? I know it is much nicer to "find yourself" and it gives people a sense of confidence, etc. But it is really really bad for forward progress, I think.

Wow I have no idea where this ended up. Anyways, all that to say Amazing article, I loved it, helped confirm what I am doing :) Thank you

There is so much truth in this, it's amazing. If you haven't already you should check out the article.
I personally believe that it's Black and White thinking that can really cause this problem where you say, like Pope, "I am what I am." No, that's a lie, you are what you TRY to be. Or what you let society, your parents, your gf, your bf, your whatever, turn you into.
And the world needs more people that are like this, more people that have their minds opened and are willing and able to learn.
I'm not saying it'll be easy...But if you put in the time and effort, you can learn any skill you want to. Anyone can.

George Soros, the evil man? The good man?

I've heard a lot of things about George Soros, I've heard that he is evil. I've heard that he wants a "New World Order" and I've heard that he's a great man that generally has a good heart.
Everyone has their own different takes on this, but I'm going to try to get to the facts of the matter.

Interview 1 proof of no manipulation:
 This video is from the ACTUAL, LIVE interview. And the words match one-for-one with the transcript here:
http://www.georgesoros.com/interviews-speeches/entry/gps_with_fareed_zakaria_interview_with_george_soros_transcript/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CpHdiWvzWCI This video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZHsZCA9xo8&feature=related
Also matches PERFECTLY word for word to the transcript above. For the moment I'll just be going over this particular interview with Soros. And, not only that, but the following picture:

If you play the video at 2:50 he starts talking about how he thinks that Fox News is using George Orwell like deception, he makes the face above at 2:55. This is quite an interesting display of emotion. I'm convinced after going through a LOT of youtube videos that the transcript of the interview is legit, don't believe me? Check it yourself. Anyhow, moving to another interview now. So I found a bunch of people giving a LOT of crap to Soros because of something he said about his youth. The interview was in Dec of 1998 on 60 minutes. He was being interviewed by Steve Kroft. Steve Kroft is KNOWN to be someone that is looking for the good emotion of situations and the drama, not the facts.
http://www.poynter.org/latest-news/als-morning-meeting/131544/dissecting-the-kroftobama-60-minutes-interview/
http://newsbusters.org/people/steve-kroft http://mediamatters.org/research/200702050005

Odd how the original article that he talks about is missing....the one that was manipulated. And the original interview is no-where to be found...I'm going to need to do some more intense research on this one. Maybe a trip to a library.

WOW!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!! http://conpats.blogspot.com/2011/04/obama-george-soros-puppet.html That site has a BLATENT lie. A few of them. HELL, even the one journalist from
http://mediamatters.org/research/200702050005 with regards to the December 20th 1998 episode of "60 minutes" that was said to skew the transcript didn't do it like this. LOOK AT THE EVIDENCE FOR YOURSELF!!!

Interesting tid-bit: http://mediamatters.org/research/201110260024 This one is from what Fox news calls that "bad guys" interestingly enough... Read the whole thing and see what YOU think. I do enjoy the fact that (as apposed to the info I've gotten elsewhere) they have ALL the data, from various sources there. Also more interesting stuff regarding the 60 minutes interview that I STILL CAN'T FIND!! The article that accused him of being heartless:
http://beforeitsnews.com/story/173/076/George_Soros_Says_He_Feels_No_Remorse_For_Collaborating_With_Nazis_During_WWII_to_Send_His_Fellow_Jews_to_the_Death_Camps,_Steal_Their_Property.html
The redaction by the people that ACTUALLY WROTE the article: http://www.ottawasun.com/comment/2010/09/17/15390151.html

neds moar engrish!!

Am I a horrible person for thinking the person that wrote this needs to take more English classes?

Memory Powers (1)

What if the "magic" that used to be (using Formulas, practicing odd rituals, etc) was always the "creativity" of today?
Being tend to demonize those they think are smarter/better/etc than they are. Maybe they do that and they called it "magic"? That is probably the most likely thing.
And that is the same reason that "magicians" use magic to describe themselves.

Some of these odd ways to memorize things forever could, if in the correct context, look a HELL of a lot like the "magic" of old. I mean, who thinks to remember the number 46 by seeing Rob Bell standing by a bonfire saying, "Shallom"?
That phrase/picture in my mind is actually 3 things:
1 - the person, Rob Bell in this case
2 - the "object", the massive bonfire from one of his Numa videos
3 - the action, in this case him saying "Shallom" (Hebrew for, please forgive the vastly lacking translation,  "peace to you and your family")
I use this "rule of three" (a HIGHLY implanted idea in our minds through millennia of reinforcment) as a guideline for a group of large numbers I want to memorize. Here's an example of how I would memorize the following number:
956037
First, group it into three parts 95 - 60 - 32, then work on each part:

95 - Which, using the Major Memory System, translates each number to a sound, like so:
9 - The Gee or Pee sound, the sound they normally are when YOU speak (the key here is your "inner voice")
5 - Fff or Vvv sound, like Fit, Fat, Video, Vat, etc...
95 then can be "translated" (they call it encoded in the business) to GV, GF, PG, PF, whichever one sticks out to you the most.
For me it's GF for Guy Faux, he will be our "rule of three" part 1.
Bear with me for just a few more minutes.
60 is the next number which makes me think:
6 - is Bee or Dee like Belly, Bill, Dead, Deal, etc...
0 - the See or Zzz sound like Set, Sit, Zip, etc...
So that gives me 60 = Brandon Sanderson (BS), I see him sitting at a desk, with a PEN in hand WRITTING a new Way of Kings book
He will be my 2nd "rule of three" character.
Finally we have 37.
3 - M, three downward strokes (lowercase m is prolly a better example) is how I was taught to remember it
7 - T, the letter because it looks like it in the correct English font.
37 = MT = Mint = Mentos (the fresh maker) = Kirby (kirby flash video where he had pasta)
He will be our final subject for the "rule of three".
Now we put it all together:
1 - 95 - Guy Faux, The "Guy Faux mask", walking around GARDENING
2 - 60 - Brandon Sanderson, using a PEN, and WRITING a novel
3 - 37 - Kirby, eating PASTA, INHALING like in super smash bros
So we use the "rule of three" to have our 3 "columns" and our 3 "rows" (If you use any spreadsheet application those are the standard terms)
The "Columns" are {1, 2, 3} mapped (so to speak) to {character, object, action}
The "Rows" are {1, 2, 3} mapped to {93, 60, 37}
So we can use our {character, object, action} "Rule of three" to memorize this information in one picture.
Now we use our imagination as much as possible in these next few steps. Instead of following what I do, make up your own ideas and thoughts based on the following:
I see Guy Faux, using a PEN to INHALE a bunch of guards when he's fighting.
Aka 95, Pen - BS - 60, MT - Kirby - 37

Notice how simple it is to remember that image you constructed (it can be anything).
Now just make sure you visualize it with your own information, then in an hour see how well you memorized it. Then in a week try to remember it.
I STILL have this list memorized (I was using link associations, not a system like the one I'm describing) from a few months ago:

Lake
Pillar
Bench
Zebra (after checking my handwritten notes I found this one was DEER, not Zebra /: )
Glasses - Specticles
Car
Crocket Mallet
Milk
Apple
Heart

Well I got 9/10 pretty damn good for something I haven't thought about in weeks.

Geniuses

What makes a person a genius?
A google search finds these results:
gen·ius  (jnys)

n. pl. gen·ius·es

1.

a. Extraordinary intellectual and creative power.

b. A person of extraordinary intellect and talent: "One is not born a genius, one becomes a genius" (Simone de Beauvoir).

c. A person who has an exceptionally high intelligence quotient, typically above 140.

2.

a. A strong natural talent, aptitude, or inclination: has a genius for choosing the right words.

b. One who has such a talent or inclination: a genius at diplomacy.

3. The prevailing spirit or distinctive character, as of a place, a person, or an era: the genius of Elizabethan England.

4. pl. ge·ni·i (jn-) Roman Mythology A tutelary deity or guardian spirit of a person or place.

5. A person who has great influence over another.

6. A jinni in Muslim mythology.

While this is not quite a perfect example, I'll use it for now.
I do LOVE the quote that was up there "One is not born a genius, one becomes a genius" -Simone de Beauvoir
I really believe that, while it is much easier for someone with a high IQ to be a "genius" it's JUST as easy for someone that's is amazing with people to be a genius too.
They are different names for the same thing, really.
I wonder how many politicians are "people geniuses" but not "economics geniuses" or "government geniuses"?


Different names for the same thing...that phrase reminds me of a death cab for cutie song, of the same name :p
"Different names for the same thing"
It's cool to finally truly "get" the song and the meaning behind it. Or at least what I think is the meaning behind it.


Wow that was a tangent....
Anyhow back to it. I have been, over the last few weeks, in a programming class. It's fun, and cool and all, but he thing that is really getting me, is the powerful tools I'm learning to use. They are so powerful, yet simple!

It's amazing how if you don't understand how it works, you don't "get it."
Sure, people without an understanding can use the magic formula (think the quadratic formula), but those with an understanding don't NEED to memorize the quadratic formula. Because they KNOW why and where and when things are going to move and how. Sure they might end up looking dumb because they are so involved in the HOW that it takes them forever. But once they "get it" it becomes simple. And they move on to higher maths with ease.
I honestly wonder if that is the problem with our current educational system?

Hmm....I recently read this article about the "Quantum Matrix" which was very facinating. Basically they said that Belief is what makes Reality. Not just MY belief, or YOUR belief, but the collective system of Beliefs that are on the Earth/in the Universe/ETC.
They break it down a lot more, in a very scientific manor, which is always nice to see.
While I'm not sure that EVERYTHING can be controlled by Belief, I do wonder about some things. I know that Beliefs about one's self are very important in Psychology. They are half the battle, getting one's Beliefs (conscious or subconscious) about one's self to align with what they say/think/feel they want.

I love it, I'm going to become a Genius, it WILL happen. Maybe I won't be a genius in math, or writing, or quantum physics (not for lack of trying), but I WILL be a Genius in computers, programming, ethical hacking, cognitive psychology, and more.
There are so many things I want to do, but there is not enough time on this world to do it all /:

Thoughts, connections, and creativity

I wonder if there is a link to creativity and how our brains form connections.
Is that all that creativity is? A powerful program that is used to connect and use different parts of different subroutines.

Thought

What if the ONLY difference between stage hypnotism and intense psychoanalysis is belief?

Belief does have some amazing and odd effects on humans.

Gen 2:19 thoughts

Genesis 2:19 is where God allows Adam to start naming all the creatures. The Literal interpretation is that God was curious to see what Adam would name the creatures. Or perhaps it was intended as a gift, he gave Adam the power to name all the creatures.
Or perhaps there's more to it...

What if the whole point of that verse is to show mankind's goal on earth; understand it all.
Is that why God brought every creature before Adam to be named? Was it a test?

Getting older

Each year it feels like I'm unlocking more and more secrets of life.
And not just life, but how people work.
Why they think how they do, what causes it.
And the more I learn about specialized knowledge, the more I realize, this knowledge isn't "out there" to find easily.

But what I've learned and the most important things in life:
Persistence pays off.
Knowing your personal limitations is key to working within them and expanding them.
Belief is everything

Can guys and girls just be friends?

I've heard people that say nope, never.

And I've heard people say that it is totally fine, no big deal.

My current thoughts are as follows:
Guys and girls can be friends only if they are not attracted to each other.
If ((GuyFeelingsAboutGirl Do Not Equal 'Attraction')AND(GirlFeelingsAboutGuy Do Not Equal 'Attraction'))
     {They can be friends until GuyFeelingsAboutGirl OR GirlFeelingsAboutGuy Equals 'Attraction'}
Else
     {They can not just be friends}

I have no clue if the above psudocode makes any sense, let me know if it does/does not (:

Emotions Revealed

The book Emotions Revealed by Paul Ekman is fantastic. I'm only through the first 2 chapters, but some of the things he talks about are absolutely ground breaking. It takes a minute to get used to the technical writing. I was surprised by how technical this book is written, the level expected from a psychology journal.

Quote of the week

I don't believe it. Prove it to me and I still won't believe it.
Douglas Adams 


Such a grand quote. It's true, of 99.5% of people. It would be an interesting world to be one of the 0.5%

out to get me

Sometimes I get super paranoid and think that everyone is out to get me.
That my family hardly cares about me.
That my girlfriend doesn't really love me
That friends are interested in more than just being friends
That I could leave today and no one would care
That friends are talking about me behind my back
That people are being sketchy
That the government is out to get me and everyone else
That people are actually testing me, trying to see what I'll do
Trying to trap me into doing something immoral or illegal

I don't handle stress well....

Suicide Note

This man was a fucking genius. I'm sad that he dedicated that genius to nihilism and that his father's passing took the "spark of life" from him.

http://articles.boston.com/2010-09-27/news/29300221_1_suicide-note-holiest-day-nihilism

As I read through his nearly 2,000 suicide note, I'll be making my own personal commentary.

It's been 10 months already...

You mean so much to me.
I love you so much.
You are my world.
My girl.

i want to get to know you
in so many ways
i want to scream from the rooftops
that i love you
that you make my world a better place
that without you, i don't know what to do
i don't ever want you to leave
i want to be with you always
every day
and every night
i want you by my side

you are so beautiful
in every way
from your smile
to that little scar on your face
i love it so much

how much you love your family
really warms my heart
the interaction between you and M and Z, is so cute
you're amazing with children, regardless of age (:

things you have done for me
from baking me cupcakes
to visiting me at home
i love it
and i love you.

i love that you put up with me
when i'm a mess
struggling with negativity and serious frustration
you still are there.

I am excited with what we have
 I hope it will last
 but if not than I will cherish the
 Memories we will always share.

Random thoughts about love

I was reading an article about love and found this quote:

http://partialobjects.com/2011/07/at-what-age-is-love-real/#comment-5124:
"Taking a step back from the Sophie’s Choice aspect, parents of teenagers are faced with this dilemma on a daily basis: is denying her permission worth the fight, and how long can I keep the parental bluff going before she does what she wants anyway? Differentiation is a constant as well, which at age 17, is probably not complete.
Back to the scenario, there are really four possible outcomes for Romeo and Juliet:
1) Each stays with their respective families (both are still kids)
2) She goes with his family (he’s a kid, she’s grown up)
3) He comes with your family (he’s grown up, she’s TBD)
4) Both leave their respective families and go in search of a third truck (both are grown up)
As her father, I’m interested in one thing only: my daughter’s survival. Is a boyfriend that would rather stay with his family than come ride with mine really capable of putting his life before my daughter’s? Who would you rather your daughter run around with in a post-apocalyptic hell-scape?"

Which makes me think a lot about my current relationship and how it relates in my mind.
My girlfriend is an adult and she still takes her parent's word as gold in some aspects. To the point where I'm starting to worry for her...and my choice to date her. I keep asking myself, "Do I really want to be involved with a girl that is still growing up?"
And the reason I keep asking myself that is because I feel like more of an adult than she is. But why is that? Is that related to finances in anyway? Or is that because I'm just a more independent person, and she's a more dependent person?

Ze Bible

Over the last few years I've come to realize that I really like the Bible. Yeah there are a few parts I dislike and a LOT of parts I disagree with, but overall it's a great book. I like seeing different people's thoughts and ideas and religions and doctrines. It's fascinating to see how creative people can get with proof-texting, assumptions, and the like. With all of the different translations it's amazing how much of the Bible actually gets lost. It's also amazing what people decide to "see" and what people decided not to "see".

Oy vey. As I get older I keep thinking that I'm meant to be an academic. If fate/god/destiny or any of that is real...
I just really enjoy studying old texts and trying to figure out the meaning and context of the time. The problem is so many people look at the context and meaning of things in our times. And they pick and choose what they want to hear.

I wouldn't mind learning Greek and Hebrew so I could study the Bible and other Jewish/Christian ancient texts. They just fascinate me, everything from the creation story to the apocryphal texts.
It's interesting how even after loosing my faith, I'm still so interested in the Bible. Glad I didn't throw it out in my "I hate all religions" phase.

Saving

It's tragic that so few people think ahead. About retirement. Or saving for a house. Or saving in general.
People don't want to get out of the "keeping up with the Joneses" mentality. They want the latest and greatest Stuff. The nice car, the huge house, and a yearly vacation.

And most of the people that want these things can't afford it. They don't want to actually spend the time and effort to create a budget and stick to it. And actually save for the items they want.

Instead they spend money on other things which obviously have value to them. Eating out, going to movies, etc.
None of those are bad things, not by far. But so many people are not saving money. In fact, most people (several of my friends included) are in Debt. They think, "Hey I can't wait to have this. I'll use my card." Which for emergencies (that's what an emergency fund is for actually...) is sometimes all you can do. But most of the time, there are ways around it.

Instead of using your card, why not think about saving? Just a little here-and-there. It's not like you have to go and start saving $500 a month. Just start with $20, when you can afford it. After you have some cash saved up, work on setting up a budget. And here's the kicker, stick to your budget. Don't let it be like nearly every year's resolution, make it a change that sticks.

I'm not going to lie, I used to be a spender. New video games, new books, and new movies. It was not a bad thing, not at all. I enjoyed it. But now I enjoy the idea of travel. Or not having to stress out if my bike dies and I have to get a new car/bike. Knowing that if the worst happens and I'll be okay, that's golden. One of the better feelings in the world.

People that are sick are stupid

I hate it when people that get sick and don't stop to get better. It just does not make sense. It's like a form of self importance.
"I'm too important to leave while I'm sick"
"They will miss me if I take off"
It's just a bunch of stupid excuses for people that are so caught up in their sense of self-importance.

Just take a day or two off and get better, jesus people. You're employer is not going to fire you for taking a day off because you're actually sick.

Time/life/etc

I hate time. In so many ways. I'm impatient, I want things now.
The clock is always ticking, counting down to that day, when your number is called.
"Life's too short" I hear it all the time. It's so true, what if that day comes tomorrow? How many things in my life would I regret doing the way I have?
Would I wish I didn't rush as much?
Or would I be sad I was so hesitant?

They say it's out the journey, not the destination. I like that, it makes sense. So I want to enjoy the journey, enjoy life.
But I wonder, how do I enjoy the journey, when it involves so much pain? How do I learn to enjoy the pains of life? Or do I just grit my teeth and get through them?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm looking to far into the future...
Should I even worry about ten years from now? Or should I stay in the moment, and enjoy it...

It's hard, I have conflicting views. My parents say wait it out, think about the future, worry about it now, things this good don't come around very often. Maybe even once in a lifetime...
The other view is to let it die, enjoy life, change things up, don't care about things that far in advance.

I don't know which one is right, both sound good. Yet I can't make a choice. I'm stuck, confused, annoyed, and impatient. Where to go, what to do, who to be...
I wonder if I'll ever have the answers to those questions...

Or is this all that life is? Just wondering around, hoping you know what your doing, pretending that you do, because that's what everyone else is doing.

Oy. So a massive Jesus statue, with lightning rods all around (so it doesn't get struck by lightning), got hit by lightning and no one is saying, "Maybe we need to repent"? Instead they are saying it was, "Just random" or "Just nature"
Interesting...
I wonder what god interfering would look like...
Because I think that is kinda the norm, right? "If I'm lying, may lightning strike me down" etc, etc.

http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2010-06-15-touchdown-jesus-fire_N.htm

Anecdotal evidence

"I find atheists and skeptics who attempt to marginalize anecdotal evidence interesting. Most of them seem to have no problem believing the anecdote that the Gettysburg Address was *actually* delivered, for example. Denial via appeal to the anecdotal nature of a data point simply postpones the acquisition of knowlegde. It’s like a convenient little gris-gris that intellectually cowardly people often use to ward off that which blatantly contradicts their worldviews." - cl

This is an interesting statement I read here: http://thewarfareismental.wordpress.com/2009/12/11/hey-atheists-its-right-here/

While I know that anecdotal evidence is not invalid, it is highly questionable. Especially now-a-days, I know that I unknowingly remember things differently than they happened. Try keeping a journal for a week, and be sure to write in it each day. Then a few weeks after you finished writing, try to recall what you wrote/what happened. Write it down. Then actually take a look at the journal. Compare the two. You'll be surprised how many differences there are between the journal and what you remember a few weeks later.

But you will get the "gist" of it.

And because of that I don't know how reliable anecdotal evidence is. I'm not saying "All people are fooling themselves" it's not that at all. It's just the way memory works. It's not perfect. 

32

Just 32 days until I fly off to London. Wow.
That's so exciting.
It will be so odd to be traveling without any family at all.
Glad my girl will be there, I don't think I'd ever travel alone. I wouldn't want to.

Dear Unconscious Mind

You are a proper asshole. And you're annoying.
Why don't you just straight up tell me what you're so damn worried about.
Instead of depriving me of sleep and sanity.

Negative suggestion.

The more that you implant a negative thought/idea/action into someone's head the more they are going to want to do it.

Just saw a Derren Brown video on youtube about this. Quite intense...

March 18th

I'm going to be flying out to London with my girl March 18th :D :D

I don't think I've been this excited for anything in a long time.

Holy shit, wow.

So excited!!

Fascinating

How strange is it to me that people of Christianity (not all of them) tend to want to "be more like Christ". Which is not a bad thing, by far. But it's odd to me, because the more like Christ they become, the more of their individuality they loose.
I'm not saying that's a good thing or a bad thing, I personally wouldn't like that.

And maybe that's why I don't "fit" with Christianity. I don't want to be someone that I'm not.

i hate time
it goes too fast
then it goes too slow
then before you know it
it's over
and you'll left feeling
sad
annoyed
angry
fucking time
stupid fucking time.