Time/life/etc

I hate time. In so many ways. I'm impatient, I want things now.
The clock is always ticking, counting down to that day, when your number is called.
"Life's too short" I hear it all the time. It's so true, what if that day comes tomorrow? How many things in my life would I regret doing the way I have?
Would I wish I didn't rush as much?
Or would I be sad I was so hesitant?

They say it's out the journey, not the destination. I like that, it makes sense. So I want to enjoy the journey, enjoy life.
But I wonder, how do I enjoy the journey, when it involves so much pain? How do I learn to enjoy the pains of life? Or do I just grit my teeth and get through them?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm looking to far into the future...
Should I even worry about ten years from now? Or should I stay in the moment, and enjoy it...

It's hard, I have conflicting views. My parents say wait it out, think about the future, worry about it now, things this good don't come around very often. Maybe even once in a lifetime...
The other view is to let it die, enjoy life, change things up, don't care about things that far in advance.

I don't know which one is right, both sound good. Yet I can't make a choice. I'm stuck, confused, annoyed, and impatient. Where to go, what to do, who to be...
I wonder if I'll ever have the answers to those questions...

Or is this all that life is? Just wondering around, hoping you know what your doing, pretending that you do, because that's what everyone else is doing.