Running.

People say, face your problems, don't run from them. Why? All that has ever happened when I attempt to face my problems is pain, pain and depression. Is this because my problems are too large for me to face alone? That could be it. It could also be that I'm not ready to face them now, or maybe these are problems that cannot be fixed by facing them? How do I know? When do I run, and when do I face them?
My problems don't haunt me, nor do they come to mind often. In fact these problems rarely, if ever, come to mind. They tend to stay in the past. I don't even see how they have changed me. I don't really act differently because of them. Actually I think that I'm more open-minded and more understanding because of these problems in my past.

The worst part is that facing my problems would mean admitting that I have problems. And to truly face them I would have to confront people. Then that would cause pain and hurt to people that I don't want to hurt. There is nothing I hate more than causing pain to those I love. Maybe this is why my life is shrouded in secrets and lies? If that's the case, then am I stuck in this forever?