It's unlikely this will make any sense or be coherent.

love lust infatuation

thoughts swimming in my head

where to go who to see

i don't know

i'm just me

i don't care

yet i do

more than people think

or know

more than i care for them to

lost alone peaceful

found around insane

yet comprehendable

around and around

like a duck in the sea

confused not found

bound yet unfounded

confusion creeps in

does not let things make sense

what makes sense

nothing, not really

or maybe things do

make sense

or seem to

i can dream

right?

it's my life my dream

does that mean i get

what i want?

probably not

but i can dream

or maybe i can't

perhaps i don't

really have a choice

or maybe i do

who knows

i surely don't know

a damn thing

well there's one or two things

that i know for sure

sometimes i wonder what 

ive gotten myself into

is it for the worst or for the best?

i hope it's for the best

because there's no turning back

not for me at least

my mind makes me crazy

it just keeps spinning

and thinking

and going and going

then when i need it most

it fails 

forgets

slows to a crawl

i wonder why.

dreams are supposed to be fun

relaxing

weird

strange

and rarely annoying

or terrifying

or scary

yet it seems

most of my dreams

are filled with violence

hate 

and pain

never for others

it's not quite like that

always pain to me

or me being violent

i wonder what it all means

if anything at all

people say it's the unconscious mind

trying to talk

i wonder if they are right?