I hate my Mind, brain, self, demons, whatever you want to call it. That little voice in my head that shares lovely little tidbits, not unlike the following examples:
"That person is out to get you."
"That person is doing that to hurt you."
"Don't believe them, they know you hate that."
"You can't trust that person"
"You can't trust yourself, what if you're wrong?"
"You smell bad."
"That person doesn't really love you."
"If you fail, they will leave you."
"You don't have any real friends."
That damn little voice, I see now why people call that "voice" (it's not really audible) their inner demon....It won't fucking shut up. Day and night, always following me. Nothing fucking helps, not religion(s), not love, not family. The only way to shut it up is to stop thinking. Perhaps this is why alcohol is so damn popular...
I also wonder how many other people out there think like this, plagued by this little doubting voice.
But if you can't beat 'um....So the newer thought process is this, use that little voice as a guide
No comments:
Post a Comment